This was supposed to be a podcast that was scheduled to start a few weeks ago. I am still under orders not to use my voice. I figured May 1st would be a great day to start it as a blog for the time being.
I was strolling online one day and found myself going down a rabbit hole of Christian YouTubers, Podcasters, etc. This was around the time when the “Shut the Doors” gate happened with Brother Marvin Sapp. Of course, I noticed some things, or I would not be here. I noticed more Christians fight and debate the gospel instead of spreading the gospel and encouraging one another. Sure, it’s entertaining. Of course, it will get likes and views. It might even be so scandalous that it goes viral, but who’s getting saved, delivered, and encouraged? Jesus said to go unto all the world and “PREACH” the gospel to EVERY Creature (Mark 16:15).
Jesus did not die and shed his precious blood for us to spend our time verbally fighting and debating each other. Some questions are even out here, physically fighting each other. He died so we can be free from sin. He died, so we won’t have to spend an eternity burning in Hell.
Things are beginning and continuing to get bad. They are getting so bad that there won’t be a need to call others. out. Remember the parable of the wheat and the tares. Jesus will separate and expose at the appointed time. If Jesus did give you that calling, there is a time, play, and way according to His Holy Word. Opinions don’t equal callings or the anointing. Neither does our knowledge. IT IS ONLY BY THE HOLY GHOST.
Now that we have gotten that out of the way. I wanted to start putting my thoughts out there as I am led. I know many feel forgotten. Even some of you who have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. You sometimes feel lost and alone, but still put a smile on your face. You still shout “Glory Hallelujah.” You still encourage others to “Have faith in God,” but struggle to have faith in Him yourself. You see God moving for others and wonder, “Jesus, when will it be my turn?” With you mouth you declare. “I am going to wait until my change comes, for I know my redeemer lives.” While at the same time your mind has even gone as far as to wonder, “Is Jesus even real?” Despite all the miracles, personal experiences, and testimonies sometimes that thought crosses your mind.
Oh, never you? Just Me? Alright then… Well, I have been known to take things to the extreme. Let’s back it up. You only like the song, “Is my living in vain? Is my praying in vain? Is my giving in vain?”
You begin to see others “Blessed” who don’t even follow Jesus. Like Job in Chapter 21. I am going to paraphrase here. “Lord, these people have so much. They live so long. They are prosperous. They are not even interested in praying or learn about you. They are so blessed. Here I am, Lord, suffering.” We have all been there.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE. We have all had our moments of doubt. The biggest trick of the enemy is making us believe 1. We don’t matter, 2. Jesus doesn’t care what we are going through, 3. Jesus and Hell are not real. Some of us accepted Jesus or got saved because we are scared of Hell. Our love for Jesus came later. The fear of going to Hell was enough to keep us from sinning. If we lose that fear, then what?
You matter so much to Jesus. You matter so much that he died for YOU! He wasn’t just killed for you, He gave up His life willingly. He said in John 10:18, “No man taketh it from me, but I lay it down of myself. I have the power to lay it down, and I have the power to take it again. This commandment have I received of my Father.” He cares so much for you. Words cannot describe the Love that Jesus has for you. I know sometimes you may look at other Christians and feel like they have it all together, and they never have moments of doubt. They are saved, sanctified, and filled with the Holy Ghost, and that with a burning fire. They have never doubted or failed in Jesus. Maybe you are right about others, but I am here to let you know that you are not alone, and I have had those moments. You are not alone in this battle. Jesus is right here with you. He said in Hebrews 13:5, “Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.”
You are not alone in this battle, but you must make the choice to FIGHT ON!!!!